As I was writing this it struck me as a bit sad that in order for Jess to achieve her goals she thinks she needs to make millions of dollars. What she actually wants is extremely simple and something you used to be able to get relatively easily with just a regular job. It’s kind of bleak.
I have been having that kind of allergy situation I get sometimes where it feels like it’s all behind my eyes and nothing I do can fix it. I’ve done everything from nasal rinses to allergy pills and I’m just stuck like this. It’s incredibly dry and the wind has blown dust everywhere, seeping into the house as well. The air purifiers can’t keep up, the humidifier is struggling.
It’s a mess and it happens every year. It causes my anxiety to spike terribly and screws up all my routines. I wonder if an eye wash bottle would help at all. It’s a bit extreme but I’m really getting sick of this year upon year. It’s also possible that my cpap isn’t working as well as it once did. It seems fine but I still haven’t convinced myself to import the 300$ motor from China to replace the one in it now. I’m really gonna be angry with myself when it stops working and I don’t have the part already. The problem is I don’t trust any of the sellers online. But whatever, I don’t feel like thinking about it right now anyway.
I’ve been doing that thing where I unconsciously grit my teeth so hard all the time that I can hear my jaw muscles straining. Every so often I catch myself and make the effort to stop, but as soon as I stop paying attention to it I instantly start doing it again. I’m sure it’s not helping with any of the other problems, but it’s part of the anxiety loop that requires nearly constant awareness to stop. It’s so bad that when I eat dinner I get dizzy from the pressure change in my ears that not doing it causes.
Anyway, I guess that’s enough complaining for now. Mom got out her new air fryer and made chicken that was exactly how I like it. So dry it was almost dehydrated. So that was good. It seems like a device specifically designed to make food exactly how I like food. Supposedly it’s better for you so I guess we’ll see if it actually helps in any way.
Apart from that I guess I should remind people the patreon and subscribestar exist if you wan to support my efforts and let you go about your lives unhindered.