I honestly had no idea I had it in me to get through a day like today. One of my feet had been swelling in a way that wasn’t exactly normal for me, but I didn’t have the symptoms usually associated with a blood clot. However, I am within the danger range for them at the moment from putting off my phlebotomies for so long. So I asked my sister for advice. She said it was probably worth a call to the doctor just to be sure. Well they wanted me to go get another blood test to double check. So I went in again on zero sleep, and the weird thing is, I was basically fine. There’s this sweet spot I hit in the early morning where all my exhaustion kind of switches off the anxiety and I can just do things. The window is about two hours though. Anyway, got the test, waited for over an hour for the results so I wouldn’t have to drive back if I needed a sonogram. Finally gave up and drove home. Got the call at about 2:30 to come in at 3:30 for a sonogram. I was just inside the danger zone for a clot so they wanted it done out of an abundance of care. I was well outside the sweet spot by then and I struggled to get back to town. Somehow I managed to get to the hospital and a nice doctor’s assistant kept an eye on me because she could tell I was wiped out. She knew my mom very well from her visits and it was like mom had established a connection for me by way of her being a delight and telling people about me. That’s a good illustration of how my mom connects to people super easily. All her doctors and nurses tell us how much they love her. Anyway, she kept an eye on me for the entire time I was there and made sure I was capable of getting home. She insisted that I call her to make sure I got home safe. I found it very moving. Got the results pretty fast. No clot. I need to get some compression socks, although I now realize I should have asked if they needed to go to the knee or higher… I’ll find out tomorrow since I’m having a follow up call. By then maybe I can think of the questions I need to ask about sock specifics. Obviously I got back home.
I did this page last night because I already had part of it finished. I may be a little wonky since it was forged by an unsteady hand. Regardless I feel better knowing I could get to a state where I can work since work is something of an escape for me. At this point I’m making no promises. I need to get some real sleep. I may have to ask the doctor about sleep aids tomorrow just to get me over this hurdle. They generally have too many drawbacks to make them worth it, but there might be things I don’t know about various choices. I’m going to try and get a page up on Friday but don’t hold me to it.

I absolutely must lay down now. I’m starting to pitch over against my will. I hope you have a nice Wednesday and I’ll see you on Friday. Until then, bounce ’em if you’ve got ’em.

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