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Like I said, Thomas has been where we’ve all been at. There are times when I thought and still think I’m a failure.

On another note, I feel dumb for thinking Thomas looked like a teenager when he said he was 26.

I used to think I was a failure… but then I realised I was never really trying to be something in the first place. Simply being nothing is rather more liberating.

Ubderstanding how you fail is the success of it. From there finding something to fill up that nothing is the interesting part is what I discovered so far. Not full yet but meh. It’s a start yknow?

You know, I read this comic over a decade ago. Probably around 2010-2012. For the last few months, it was on the tip of my tongue. I was curious about it. Finally rediscovered it yesterday when I remembered Brooksie’s name and tried to find her in google images.

Everything Thomas is going through is so painfully relatable. I found him relatable when I was younger, but now that I’m a bit older, I can see how much I’m not like him. But *damn* if the ennui he’s been expressing for the last few pages doesn’t fit me to a T. He thinks it’s bad at 26? Try 30, pal.

I too am a retail wage slave. I too aspire to be a writer. I’m burnt out and tired and go home most days too exhausted to do what I love. But thankfully I’ve kept writing. I have a story I plan to publish one day. God knows when it’ll be done, but it will. I found a girlfriend (which I never thought would happen) and she’s incredibly supportive.

And soon I’ll be quitting my retail wage slave job. I’ll be free. I’ll be unemployed for a few months, then go and get some part time work. Just enough to pay the bills and afford groceries. None of the shit I can buy actually makes me happy. Right now, my time is so much more valuable to me.

The point is, I think it does get better. It takes time and perseverance. But just staying in the fight can get you there.

Idunno. Revisiting this just makes me reflective, is all.

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