I’ve been sitting here trying to decide what to write for almost ten minutes & keep not starting because I can’t talk about most of what’s going on in my life and the rest I don’t want to talk about or feel like people will be alienated. Over the last 4 years or so the internet has basically punished me into feeling like I can’t talk about much of anything. I’m sure I’m not alone in this feeling. There is no subject that someone won’t freak out over. So I’m here, alienated from things in a sort of vaguely uncomfortable way.
There are a few people that have told me they don’t want to see me do a blog at all. Not that they don’t want to read it, they want me to stop doing it because they don’t like me as a person. After the last few years of using twitter I’m starting to think they are right. I’ve stopped reading almost every webcomic I ever enjoyed because the creator is a complete asshole. I’m only holding out on Questionable Content because I feel like I need to retain something from the days when I was inspired to make my own webcomic, but I can’t stand Jeph Jaques. Maybe he’s okay in person, but as a voice on social media he’s intolerable. I’m sure I’m the same way to a lot of people and maybe the blog doesn’t help. When I started the going idea was that you weren’t just selling your comic but also selling yourself. Now I’m not sure if that was good advice or not. My personality seems to work as a group of people with bits of it distributed among them, but as a single unit not so much. Comics in general used to be a huge part of my life but they’ve been ruined in almost every way. If people are still making comics domestically that I would like I haven’t seen them. Now I just sort of pirate manga and try to buy the collected volumes if they ever get a US release. I can’t have them ruined by social media… yet. I feel like Google translate might find a way someday.
Hopefully today is not the day you decide you hate me. In fact I hope it’s the day you decide to support my work on Patreon, or whatever. Maybe instead of driving you away my blog has humanized me in your mind and I’ve made a connection with you. I hope so anyway.