The place on my back that I hurt has transitioned to the phase where it’s cramping up horribly when I move after I lay down. That tends to be the stage before healing, so that’s something, but I still have to live through it. The effect of it is that I haven’t fallen all the way asleep for a couple of days and my sleep schedule is in utter chaos.

Before all of the back stuff started I began taking an allergy pill before I went to sleep and it all but ended my nightmares. I started doing it because I was waking up with my eyes so crusted with gunk that it was becoming an issue. I had no idea that my allergies could be a cause of nightmares. The other day I decided to test and see if I could stop doing it since I don’t like being dependent on pills. I didn’t have relentless nightmares but it clearly screwed up my sleep not having it. I started taking them on schedule again but by that time I had messed up my back so I had traded one bad situation for another. That happens with science sometimes.

In addition to all of that I had a phlebotomy and that always screws me up for a few days. I almost didn’t need one after two weeks so my various health efforts are having some effect on that at least. While getting it I saw the bag of blood a few times though and struggled mightily to not pass out. Passing out at the sight of my own blood was never a thing before my foot issues, but after that I developed this tendency for whatever reason. As I said though I didn’t pass out, but my brain wanted me to very much and it lingered for quite some time.

I don’t like passing out chiefly because it’s a loss of control and as someone who can barely tolerate the loss of control it’s one of the worst things. Another problem with it is that if I fall over it takes 4 people to move me. So wherever I end up is where I stay. I don’t stay stable in chairs if it happens when I sit down too, so if I’m not in a chair that holds me in place in some way I sort of melt to the floor. Basically I become an impediment to everyone and everything and I don’t like that. Anyway, maybe it’s not going to be so much of a problem now since I was able to will myself to maintain consciousness this time. I walked out under my own power, although I’m glad I didn’t have far to go.

I slept poorly enough this morning that right now my brain is beginning to rebel against me as I type. The page is done and I was alert enough that it wasn’t a problem to finish it. It’s only 9 PM as I’m sitting here so it’s well outside the time I would normally want to sleep. Of course I’m not sure if the right move is to give in, or to try and get my schedule back to something closer to normal. I get the feeling that my brain is going to revoke my waking self’s choice soon. That’s fine, I suppose. I’ve done all the required of me things for today, sO I could theoretically lay down and just not worry about anything for a change… Or at least not worry about the typical things.

It occurs to me that part of the issue today might be that i turned my lights from warm computer times light to cool real world work light and didn’t change it back. I prefer cool light for real world work, but it seems to strain my eyes and make me more prone to eye strain. I really dislike how warm light makes everything look yellow or orange, but it seems to be more agreeable to my eyes for whatever reason. I didn’t think the type of light you exist in was all that important until after I started using these smart lights that can be changed. After I stared experiencing different effects from them I researched lighting and found out that the type of light you are exposed to is very important. Now I’m more aware of it, but not so aware that I don’t forget to tailor my lighting to my tasks all the time.

Anyway, that’s about enough from me. I hope you all have a nice weekend and return safely to me on Monday. Until then remember Nerfuls are a ball to be around.