Jessica is one of the characters in the comic who is cursed with future thinking. A lot of her behavior is caused by her desire to disrupt it. Thomas also has this problem. Their minds are always reminding them that nothing lasts. It causes an intense desire to make good situations last as long as possible, but also sometimes to not try new things because, even if there is success, it will eventually end. Thomas tends to roll over and accept fate whereas Jess tends to actively fight against it. On some level both of them do it irrationally. To one degree or another, at any given time, they are living in a moment that doesn’t, and may never, exist. Most people do this from time to time, but some of us do it to a degree that can be toxic.
Edward only does it a little bit comparatively. He’s more capable of just accepting that things are how they are until they aren’t. With Jess and Thomas they are ultimately cursed to know that they cannot win, no matter how hard they try. Death will come. The end always comes. That’s a fundamental part of mortality that all sentient beings must resolve within themselves.
On some level the reason why Jessica is willing to do nearly anything to get what she wants is because she feels like she is fighting an opponent that doesn’t follow any rules. When one fights monsters it’s very easy to become one. Ultimately her goal is to benefit as many people as possible while also finally getting to feel safe and happy. In light of her intelligence one could argue that her talents might be better utilized in the service of mankind. You can’t force someone to live up to their potential. Even if you try you’ll just make them resent it all the more. Jess is on a journey that will hopefully lead to her becoming whatever her best self is. There are a lot of people who stumble on a journey like that, and many who stay down once they do. I guess it’s good, for her sake, that god is rooting for her.
I would like to think that god is also rooting for me, but as the divine hasn’t given me obvious signs I will settle for you, dear reader, rooting for me by way of supporting my work via the links above. For my part I will root for you in return by way of making comics that will hopefully ease your passage through this mortal existence. I will see you Friday with the next offering. Stay safe until that time for me.