In a relationship there are times when one, or both, parties fall prey to the insanity that fear causes. Navigating your way out of a situation like this is delicate at best. Honestly there seems to be some sort of human need to fight because avoiding conflict in life is essentially impossible, no matter the scale. Sometime part of our brain wants to take control of a situation, so we start a fight that we can try and guide the outcome of. if they really love us they will stay and if they don’t I’ll be proven right. all of us want, and the most fearful of us need, control. Unfortunately other people have free will so control is only possible in small sections, but some of us just can’t deal with that. To this day I have trouble accepting that I can’t control everything. It is absolutely connected to my anxiety attacks. Not being sure how long I can tolerate being on my feet makes the idea of possibly getting trapped outside unbearable. An unknowable variable that throws all other aspects of life into disarray. Chances are I won’t be able to deal with going out for any length of tome until I know I’m well.
Anyway, it hardly matters. I make all my money online and I can make Amazon deliver me food if it comes to that. These days there’s not a lot of things you can’t have delivered. Its a good thing I don’t have a job that requires me to go anyplace far though, or this foot thing would have really docked me over.
I watched a string of tutorials about manga studio. So I’m going to be bringing that knowledge into the new pages. Hopefully the effort will be worthwhile. It could potentially eliminate the need to pay someone else for background work. well, not need, exactly. The desire I have to present a more complete world that most of you are fine not seeing. XD. Anyway itvwill make me feel like less of a fraud, and that’s the thing to focus on.
I’m going to try and get all the really important stuff dome before the weekend so I can get the highest rank possible in the next splatfest. This is me making the plan right now to set time aside for this goal. I want to becable to enjoy myself and not feel bad about it like last time. Scheduling, like an adult. Betweenfailures is my wiiu name thing if you want to friend me.
Oh yeah, I got scolded again for not putting the gofundme link in the posts. We pretty much got to the goal so I wasn’t going to make a big thing out of it…. here it is. As always thanks to anyone who donated. Be sure to mail me if you want to claim any of the bonuses that were offered. It may take a while, but I’ll get to them all eventually.