And just like that the page number is no longer special. I wonder how many pages it will require for it to be special again. 3100? Probably not. I suspect it will have to be 4000. I’ve actually done more than 3000 pages. There’s two sections of the archive that aren’t part of the regular numeration because of various struggles. Around 100 pages. Still, the previous page got numbered 3000 so it’s got that number magic that makes humans pleased. Human psychology, am I right? I don’t even want to think about how long it will take to reach 4000 pages. One of the most valuable things I’ve learned from making this comic is not thinking about things. When I was young I thought about all the things and I wasn’t very happy. Now I don’t think about things whenever possible and things are better. The first day I started making this thing I just started making pages and didn’t think about how many pages it would take to get to my point. Before then whenever I tried to do anything I always got hung up on doing things right the first time, or how much stuff I needed to do before doing other things, and it all piled up until I never did anything. It was the same when I worked with other people. We let ourselves get stopped by wanting to be good right from the start. Now I know that that’s only for special people. Most of us just need to start doing things without being good, then get good over time. Worrying about being good at things stops people from trying. Maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe only a few people should break free of that thinking so that only a few people throw their lives away chasing dreams before realizing they’ve made a terrible mistake. I’ve gotten away with it by having a good portion of luck and just enough talent to get by on. My nature is to downplay any talent I have, but logically I must have some because people wouldn’t pay me to keep doing this if it was making them miserable. I know that infuriates some other people, but them’s the breaks. Sometimes people you hate get to make money doing things you think they don’t deserve. Life is unfair in that way, and many other ways. Not thinking about that is a good thing to not think about. It’s very fun to dwell on unfairness though. I understand if you can’t. The rage it causes warms the soul in that particular way that only righteous fury can.

This actually puts me in mind of someone. My friend Jeff, who I worked with many years ago, does a gameplay youtube channel with another guy I don’t think I know. https://www.youtube.com/@WootandRoxxor As far as I know their stuff doesn’t get many views, but they’ve been posting them for years now. I don’t like that kind of content so I only have a general idea of what it’s like if I’m being totally honest. The thing is though that Jeff is one of the most casually funny people I’ve ever met. In person he’s just a clever observant guy and I don’t know if that doesn’t transfer well to the longplay format or what. If you’re in a room with him while he’s telling stories though he’s an absolute treat though. If I was putting together a team to write a comedy show I would absolutely reach out to him. I know so many people like that too. Whenever people criticize my comic for having too many clever people I’m like I must have been the luckiest fucking guy ever to have met so many exceptional people… One of my friends worked on the latest Laika movie. One does some kind of improve stuff. One guy is a former radio DJ who really should still be one. Like, little echoes of them are woven all into this comic. In some other universe I hope some other me realized what we could have done together and took them all to the heights of success.

Oh well, that’s as may be. This is what I ended up doing and I’m glad of that. Still, I wish I had the wherewithal to bring all those guys together to do something. Maybe we aren’t as special as I feel like we are, but I’m willing to fail if it means finding out for sure. In any case I’ll see you on Friday with another page. I hope your week is going well. Until next time, water your plants.

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