I think media trains us to expect that every person has this completely thought out philosophy about how they live, but in reality a lot of people have sort of a nebulous idea of why they do things that they never really articulate out loud. I also think that social media has caused people like that to have to stop and try to come up with something on the fly and it doesn’t always work out. Unfortunately they don’t get the chance to keep evolving the concept, they just get attacked, double down, or any number of bad outcomes. At this point I don’t think there’s any helping that. It’s just how it is now & if you don’t take some time to figure out how to express your stance in a way that isn’t adversarial you just have to take your chances. Even then it’s something of a crap shoot.
John wants to be independent, self reliant, and free to do what he wants. At the same time he’s not against entanglements with other people that might tie him down to a particular location. On some level those are opposing viewpoints. Most people are in conflict with themselves in some way all the time.
I cause strife in my daily life constantly & seemingly for no reason, but write a story largely about avoiding conflict, or resolving it peaceably. I am confident and forceful in many of my interactions but shrink into convulsions when trying to do things by myself. Some aspects of my personality are so wildly in opposition to each other it’s a miracle my brain doesn’t simply hemorrhage just to end the suffering. That’s just how things are sometimes. People are kind of bullshitting their way through life, not knowing what the point of it all is. It does seem pretty clear that the whole system was set up to be annoying at the very least though.

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