2018-01-26-BF1802-conundrum


1802 Conundrum.

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I’m not going to lie, I very much want to explore more of Reggie’s family life and his relationship with his sister, who I love very much.

I had a really hard time sleeping last night. Something is causing me to have much more acute shaking fits than I ever used to. WHat the cause is, is a mystery to me. I slept in two fitful bouts from 7pm or so to about 10:30 I would guess? I’m not sure, but I know that I got on twitter when I woke up and was on until I finally was able to lay back down. Venting someplace where people are awake and respond at least a little helps me cope, especially since I’m alone, apart from the dogs, in the late hours of the day. Honestly, I can imagine how much better my life would have been in some ways if I had, had the internet at my disposal when I was young. All those nights spent cowering in my bed might have been much less terrible if I’d had a circle of friends all over the world who were always awake and ready to listen the way I do now. I know that the internet has caused a lot of problems, but I think, on balance, the more connected people are the harder it is to hate. When you know a lot about the people in other places you become invested in their struggles and want more for them. When my country does something dishonorable I feel ashamed because on some level I feel like my culture has let down friends in other places. I don’t know, but forming bonds between people is good. We need more bonds between us so we can all help lift each other up.

Anyway, thank you all for being around for me online in various places. The small kindnesses you show me help much more than you might expect.