My sleep issues continue to evolve. I’ve partially regained my ability to feel sleepy at least. I can’t seem to stay asleep for more than 4 hours at a time and the sleep isn’t great, but I can get up for half an hour or so and reset back to a sort of pick up sleep for another couple of hours. Often I wake up in even more pain, or anxiety than the first time, but I can usually get over it in another 20 minutes or so and then function well enough to go about my day. In recent years, when I’m feeling more or less okay, I sleep for about 5 hours. If something is wrong it’s sometimes over 8 hours of bad sleep and I don’t function very well. I’m kind of in a state that combines elements of each. I’m also sleeping at night, which I really dislike. My preferred sleep time is from 5AM till noon, or there abouts. For whatever reason I’ve always hated those sunrise hours till midday, so I try to sleep through them. I don’t know why I’m this way but it is what it is.
I think I may actually have to break down and have another sleep study done so I can get a new cpap machine. I’m not confident that replacing the motor on my old one is going to be enough. The idea is concerning though since it’s $1000 minimum for a study and then god knows how much for the new machine and whatnot after that. I know that I have to have one to sleep and not slowly deteriorate into complete madness & I’m not sure if that’s partly what’s already happening. When my blood oxygen dips consistently below a certain range I basically start to go slowly insane. Or maybe not so slowly. Of course my doctor just closed his office to move to a different area and it’s thrown my health care into a state of uncertainty. His new place is closer but the practitioners I liked that worked under him are all gone. It’s irritating to be sure.
Anyway, I guess I’ll just take care of it as I can. I can’t force any of this to get taken care of on my schedule I have to work inside the American health care system’s schedule, which is… Not ideal at the very least.

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