When I was little I got the fingernail torn off of the middle finger on my right hand. It was traumatizing, although I don’t know exactly how it happened. I had some kind of toy car that had a mechanism, possibly like a rip cord, and I stuck my finger where that cord should have gone and somehow it took the fingernail off my finger. I didn’t go to the hospital over it. My parent’s washed it and bandaged it after it stopped bleeding. Eventually the nail grew back, but apparently some kind of nerve damage was done. There is a spot under the nail that has always felt, for lack of a better word, infected. If you’ve ever had a small spot of infection there’s a very specific kind of dull, itchy, pain. That finger has felt that way for 30 some odd years. The other day I decided to slowly cut down my fingernail until I uncovered the place where it itches, just to see if messing with it could fix it, or lessen the feeling. So I’ve cut the fingernail down, almost to the point of bleeding, then let it adapt, and repeating the process until I cut away enough nail to actually touch the spot that used to be under the nail. A chunk of… Something came off of the spot. I’m not sure exactly what it was. It didn’t grow back when I pulled it off and there was no bleeding. It was almost like a callus above the hurt spot. Now it’s just uncovered and I can touch it. It’s just a spot of slightly harder smooth skin. It just sort of feels hurt even though visually nothing appears wrong with it. Whatever is broken about it is on a level too small to be observed. In keeping with my nerve damage theory. I’ve put lotions on it of various types to see if anything makes the sensation stop, but nothing has so far. I will probably just allow it to grow back the way it was since there’s nothing I can do apparently. Although being able to poke at it is kind of cathartic. Maybe I’ll keep it really short so I can jab it from time to time when I want to feel something as a distraction. Anyway, that’s a thing I did. At some point I think I’ll take pictures of it with my microscope and see if there’s anything to see.

What else? I guess I should just remind you that you can support my work via the above links and leave it at that. I’ve got a package that requires a signature coming tomorrow so I’ll have to stay awake when I would usually sleep so I guess I should nap or something. In any case, let’s meet again on Wednesday and see what my made up people are doing. Until then, keep your stick on the ice.

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