2015-11-09-BFP14557-axed


1457 Axed.

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My body no longer gets sleepy in ways that I understand as getting sleepy. It just suddenly tries to make me fall over. I never know when it’s going to happen it just happens. It’s super disruptive because I can’t plan on anything now. My Cpap seems to just keep me in this not asleep not awake state, so I never just sleep. This has been going on for weeks and it’s starting to really make my mind deteriorate. My work speed has slowed to a crawl and I can’t wrap my brain around certain things I used to be able to draw. The dizziness I’ve been experiencing has gotten worse rather than better with the new stuff the doctor recommended, not that there is any correlation necessarily. It’s just not helping.

As I sat down to write this my body started doing the thing and now I’m struggling to keep it together long enough to write this. I’m not sleepy. I’m wide awake but my body wants to rest. This is total fucking bullshit.

THE GODDAMN INTERNTET KEEPS DROPPING AND EATING MY POST! FUCK IT, I’M OUT!